a terrible month

Hi all. I'm sorry it's been such a long time since I posted anything, but the past month has been a horrible month, and I just couldn't concentrate enough to sit down and write about anything. However today I feel like I have to.

Last week my beautiful little girl esme went missing. I put posters up all over our estate to try and find her. I got a phone call yesterday to tell me someone thinks they had found her. Unfortunately she'd been dead in their garden for 3 days. I'm sure you can imagine how horrible it was to go and bring her home and make sure it was her by this point, which has left me in a state of pure misery since.
Other problems before this happened have also included a car accident (no body was hurt but we now are paying through the nose on insurance.) Matt lost his job, my vespa broke over and over costing nearly £500 to fix, which has been such a struggle to afford, and the stress and arguments that have entailed.

The only thing that has been keeping me going is the hope that things can only get better, and that my string of bad luck might finally be over :(